My Spiritual Journey 3
It was during the summer of 2010 that my loving Father was diagnosed with a terminal illness.
I found myself in a low vibrational, emotional and spiritual place. I was low in mind, body and spirit searching and asking lots of questions.
Why am I here?
What is the meaning of life/death?
Why do we become ill?
Why do we suffer?
I continued going for healing and during a significant session, I became aware of deep unhealed emotions and emotional pain stored within my being. Raw emotions that I was unaware of were buried and supressed. These emotions felt very strong and were now finally being released. At the end of the session, I was very surprised when I was informed by some of the healers that I was a very good channel and would one day make an excellent healer.
I never imagined I could or would be seen as a potential healer at such a challenging time when I also required healing.
As I eventually began to come to terms with my Father’s deteriorating condition, my emotional wellbeing began to improve, I still questioned if healing was something I was really going to do. Would I really be able to channel healing energy?
I can gratefully say that I was able to attend and complete the first levels of my healing course with the Healing Trust in October 2010. This enabled me to confidently support my Father as his health declined and to also cope with my Father’s passing in November 2010.
It was during this time of grief that I recognised the subtle changes emerging within myself, changes in my relationships with my family, friends and relationships at my place of work. This was what I now see as a major episode of change.
To say this was an easy time would be an understatement. This was a time of pruning, a time of clearing out, letting go and releasing all that was no longer needed or required in my life.
I realise now that I was being prepared to be a clearer channel – a healer, to release my ego, have faith in an unseen, higher power, overcome my fears, face bigger challenges and find an inner strength that I never knew I had.
By Sophia Flemming